What does normal really mean?? The definition of normal changes depending on the situation and person. So who gets to classify normal from dissident??..Who sets the standards for what normal is??
Well, I feel like my life can never be normal. I am a star so I will forever shine, however, I just want to blend in. I want to be remembered, but I don't want the spotlight. If that makes any sense. Normal to some is a wife/husband, kids, career, white picket fence, and life moving by on a schedule. Then to others normal is playing by the rules, always doing what their suppose to, not questioning life, just working and coming home. To me, normal is none of thee above..lol.
Normal is being able to step into a room and not have all eyes on you. Normal is being able to go a month without something goin on with family. Normal is being able to go completely without hearing your name in the streets about some dumb made-up bullshit. Normal is being able to not question how someone feels. Normal is being able to depend on someone other than myself. Normal is not always having the answer's to other people's problems. Normal is getting out what I put in.
My demeanor shows my class, therefore, that plus my looks give me attention. My family is crazy and dysfunctional so there is always something. My strong presence keeps haters with my name in their mouth. My ability to second guess, and a need for stability in life allows me to question a person's intentions. My independence disables me to look for someone else take care of me, I don't like the feeling of having to ask someone to do something for me. My personality brings comfort so I am asked for advice in abundance, and I am always thinking so my mind weighs out all possible outcomes to any situation. My understanding of patience is a virtue, and being considerate allows me to be more understanding than the "normal" woman would. The softer side of me that has a need to feed into what that side needs allows me to be content without settling for less. So the answer to that is no, I can never be normal.
I don't want to be the normal that completely blends in with everyone else, because in reality I am a dissident. I love everything about me that makes me the crazy fun person I am, and everything that sets me apart from all other females. I love that I will never be like anyone or everyone else. However, I do want my life to be normal. I want to be able to drop off the scene and not hear anything about myself, I want to have family peace, I want to live a normal life, by my definition of what normal should be..and far away from the state I love and hate all at the same time. I am happy tho..do not get me wrong, I can not complain, my life is so fulfilling, and in a really good direction..God is sooo good to me. However, I just desire to be "normal". Might not understand, but it makes sense to me.
"Yes, iM da BEST..and No, iM not positive iM DeFiNite..
I kNo da GaMe..LiKe iM ReFFiNg iT."
Well, I feel like my life can never be normal. I am a star so I will forever shine, however, I just want to blend in. I want to be remembered, but I don't want the spotlight. If that makes any sense. Normal to some is a wife/husband, kids, career, white picket fence, and life moving by on a schedule. Then to others normal is playing by the rules, always doing what their suppose to, not questioning life, just working and coming home. To me, normal is none of thee above..lol.
Normal is being able to step into a room and not have all eyes on you. Normal is being able to go a month without something goin on with family. Normal is being able to go completely without hearing your name in the streets about some dumb made-up bullshit. Normal is being able to not question how someone feels. Normal is being able to depend on someone other than myself. Normal is not always having the answer's to other people's problems. Normal is getting out what I put in.
My demeanor shows my class, therefore, that plus my looks give me attention. My family is crazy and dysfunctional so there is always something. My strong presence keeps haters with my name in their mouth. My ability to second guess, and a need for stability in life allows me to question a person's intentions. My independence disables me to look for someone else take care of me, I don't like the feeling of having to ask someone to do something for me. My personality brings comfort so I am asked for advice in abundance, and I am always thinking so my mind weighs out all possible outcomes to any situation. My understanding of patience is a virtue, and being considerate allows me to be more understanding than the "normal" woman would. The softer side of me that has a need to feed into what that side needs allows me to be content without settling for less. So the answer to that is no, I can never be normal.
I don't want to be the normal that completely blends in with everyone else, because in reality I am a dissident. I love everything about me that makes me the crazy fun person I am, and everything that sets me apart from all other females. I love that I will never be like anyone or everyone else. However, I do want my life to be normal. I want to be able to drop off the scene and not hear anything about myself, I want to have family peace, I want to live a normal life, by my definition of what normal should be..and far away from the state I love and hate all at the same time. I am happy tho..do not get me wrong, I can not complain, my life is so fulfilling, and in a really good direction..God is sooo good to me. However, I just desire to be "normal". Might not understand, but it makes sense to me.
"Yes, iM da BEST..and No, iM not positive iM DeFiNite..
I kNo da GaMe..LiKe iM ReFFiNg iT."
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