.*too beautiful.

Just about every morning I hear, "you are too beautiful to look so mean." And my thoughts are...BITCH..SHUT THE FUCK UP.

One. If I gave two shits about what you thought I would have asked pussy.

Two. I ain't a fucking morning person..so if I wanna walk around muggin..guess what??? I WILL. Maybe I just don't like you.

Three. Fuck is that supposed to mean?? Pretty girls gotta walk around happy 24/7..cuz they pretty?? DA FUCK??????

Four. Read my fucking face...it says back da fuck up and leave me da fuck alone.

Five. Read my fucking face..do I look like I want to talk to yo happy ass, smiling all up in my face..I ain't fittin to crack no fucking smile, or joke so kick rockz. LOL.

In da morning..to the public..I'm on some speak when spoken to type shit.

On another note..after a hour or so of being up I will become my normal self..it's only really on days I am tired or don't feel good. So ma fucka wait till I'm up...you see me EVERYDAY..and KNOW my attitiude don't last too long...so what's the problem??..I still speak to ya'll monkey asses....all that "u too beautiful" shit..I DON'T GIVE A FUCK.

What would be beautiful is...if i slap da shit out yo ass for being to fucking close when I don't want to be bothered..So lick my balls bitch...LMAo..Next time I'll make sure to mugg without saying Good morning too...LOL.

in da words of weezy...

"STEP BACK"

.*R.I.P. Christopher Anthony Norris

Today is my cousin Chris' birthday, he would have been 30 today. I had to write for my nicca, because it seems every year I miss his birthday, and I did not realize it has been 15 years since he has been gone. Meaning he pasted at the age of 15. His death was truly a tragedy, and he was so badly damaged it was amazing he was able to have a open casket.

To Chris::
Hi, my love..I know I barely talk to you these days but you know you are always in my heart..and I love you unconditionally. Please talk to your mother..she still has not dealt with your passing, and it is truly pathetic the way she wants everyone to feel sorry for her. You have been gone for 15 years and she acts as if you left yesterday..explain to her your okay and your somewhere much better, she don't have to worry. She needs to hear it from you, because from anyone else, it doesn't seem to register. I miss you A LOT..you don't even know me outside of deeder dot. LOL. Yea I'm all grown up now. All us kids reminsice over you sometimes..and we just laugh so hard, thinking of all the things we can remember. I remember your braces like it was yesterday. Always playing with them damn rubber bands. You know what I thought about today?? You always farting on B.j, Justin, Troy, and Cory's heads...LMAo...that shit is so nasty..but was too funny. Syurp Sandwiches with thick ass nasty KING syrup. LOL. OMG...you loved peanut butter && jelly...it was ridiculous how many you ate in a day. I eat mines just like you tho..A LOT of peanut butter and a little bit of jelly. I miss your dirt bike..us following Dinky and you to the quarry. Awww say hello to Dinky for me..tell him we miss him as well..and he is not forgotten either. Have you seen Granddad yet?? I know you have..I know he was soo happy to see you. You know you were always more like grandma && granddad's then ya moms. Grandma is doing much better these days..Bonnie keeps her ass busy and that's what she needs. Man I have so much I could say..but I don't know where to begin. I hate that I didn't get more time with you..but I understand that wasn't the plan. From how everything happened..I know you knew it was your time to go..I just wish you could see me today..and your brothers and sister, and everyone...Well I know you see us but get to interact with us..see our different persoanlities first hand..it's so beautiful when we all get together. We have so much fun..there are no words for my mouth..lol..and that's the highlight. Missy and Nikki miss you greatly..after everything you wouldn't believe the nightmares they had, and how they would scream and cry through half the night. I think they felt partly responsible, but missy told me the story about when you pooped in the tub when yall was little, and ya'll all got beat..LOL..Nasty ass. Buckles just came home a few weeks ago...hopefully for good this time..after a life of in and out of jail..I think these last 5 years behind bars really put shit in prospective for him. Plus, Willium and Buckles both missed granddad's funeral, and Willium missed yours, and Buckles only got a few minutes to be there due to prison, so I think they have a desire to do something better now. Willium will be home in a week or two and since they don't live in Mt. Airy no more and Rennie and all dem still locked up..I think change will FINALLy come. Thank God! I am tired of seeing my family repeat the same habits..BUT the family cycle is breaking...because all of us starting from missy && nikki down have changed shit around..Anyway, kiss G-Dad for me, and Dinky, and Donna..and tell them everyone misses them. I see Donnie sometimes..especially around the time he got out..and I can tell by looking into his eyes he feels responsible...ask Donna to talk to her brother. He needs peace with everything as well. But I love you, I miss you, and just watch over me and make sure I do as I should. *MUAH* Until later...bye.

Love,

Dee

"LiKe I droppeD straigHt FroM HeaVeN"

.*random facts about me.

*My facial expressions always give away my thoughts.

*My mom is the corniest person ever, and seriously lacks a sense of humor..so when she tries its just like, "why?? don't do that again"..lol. And her voice annoys me to no end..shame..lol (I am working on it.)

*I am a high maintenance tomboy. Thus making me one in a million.

*I am THEEE BIGGEST WEEZY fan..PERIOD!! I kno the words to ALL his shit. He has a drug problem, BUT that man is a fucking lyrical GENIUS..there is no limit to his greatness...I just LOVE the way he delivers on a track. Best Rapper alive.

*I LOVE football with a passion. I LOVE to watch it, but enjoy playing more (the only time I won't be upset over a broken nail..lol.) I LOVE to watch the NFL Network all day, and thee BEST team in history and league is the Dallas Cowboys..PERIOD! Take your opinion and shove it up your ass.

*I am the fattest skinny girl you know. I have a divine love and passion for food. I eat ALL the time.

*I have so many talents, I am good at whatever I do.

*I HATE the color pink with a passion..Pink is for girls..LOL.

*I am highly favored and truly blessed. God has a HUGE plan for me. He blessed me with the gift of healing.

*Dominique embodies the essence of love and fairness. Dee is the biggest asshole you will meet, takes no prisoners, and can be a spiteful bitch when hurt, and Dominique hates that.

*I do not want recognition for the things I do, but I do want to be appreciated.

*I do not tolerate disrespect in any form, and I do not respond to pet names..my name is Dee..learn it if you want to speak to me. All that extra shit is reserved for my dude only..and I want the same respect.

*I am VERY picky, highly intelligent, have no patience for negativity, and I like to be alone often.

*I LOVE upscale restaurants, LINGERIE, designer bags, fuck me pumps, dresses, men sweat pants (never wear women's), and basketball shorts. LOL.

*I have a way with words, and love to write poetry or anything that allows me to be descriptive.

*I don't believe in medicine. I do believe..NO, I know God takes care of me. No matter what..I don't trust medicine. I know my body and I know my God..so I can't go wrong.

*I call my little sister Cracker..and she responds every time..LOL.

*My dad has many nick names for me: Dee, Deeder, Deeder Dot, Boss, and my angry child..lol. HE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN CALL ME DEEDER..OR DEEDER DOT..don't do it 2 urself.

*My family thinks I am crazy as shit and I'd have to agree. I say what I think..and they love me for that. They love my persona.

*My tongue cuts like a knive but it can also mend the wound. LOL. (depending on the person)

*I have difficulty showing my nice side to my family. I always have little or no patience..they think I am cold, which isn't entirely true..it's just a long story to that.

*Sometimes I really think I need a psychiatrist.

*My parents don't worry about me..they worry for the ones that get in my line of fire.

*"She moves her body like a cyclone"..LMAo..but seriously I am SICK in the art of dance. After I achieve my dreams in my career, I will become a choreographer.

*My heart is the biggest contradiction to my personality. Personality alone...you have Dee. Heart && personality combined..you get a unique blend, thus producing Dominique.
*thats all for now*

"One word to DesCriBe me..SPECTACULAR..YES!!"

.*butter.

::::WARNING::::

THIS BLOG CONTAINS VIEWER SENSITIVE MATERIAL!!!..LOL

Ok so I know this is strange..but I LOVE butter. No I don't eat it by itself..but I do use it excessively. Butter makes everything ten times better..(well food wise!)..LOL. I went to the waffle house this weekend and they only offer those little butter containers. So after ordering, I told the waiter I need A LOT more butter..so he brings me a bowl with like nine butter containers..LOL. The worst part is I used all of them except for one..and I only had two waffles..LOL.. photo please::

(P.S. That bacon look dry as shit..no wonder I ain't eat it..LOL)

Regularly scheduled program

LMAo..I know its not healthy and I shouldn't use that much..but I can't help it..butter puts the icing on the cake for me..And I cake butter like this on everything I eat it with. I even tried butter on steak..LMAo..uhm it was delicious..photo please::

But I'll stick to how I normally eat steak..medium rare with lots of A1 sauce. LOL..I have plenty of other things to put butter on. My cousin's Tippy && Nickey know my fetish for butter and whenever we go to my favortie spot to eat in Richmond they always make fun of me..LOL. It's too funny..well a lot of people make fun of me and my lover butter..but hey it makes me happy! LOL. I remember one time someone said something like, "No you eat butter and pancakes..not pancakes with butter"..LOL...whateva...it ain't complete if it ain't covered in BUTTER!!..


"When you've been blessed...feels like HeaVeN!!"

.*reese's brownies.

I can't believe I have not already spoke on this. This is every fat girl's dream..LOL. But this is my shit..fa real..it's my favorite snack. It is a brownie with Reese's Peaunt Butter and Hershey's Chocolate Chips topped with a Drizzle of Reese's Peanut Butter Icing....YUMMMMMMM. Yea got that straight off the package..lol. But it is so scrumptious. I usually get two at a time..one for now and one for bed..lol. But this time I only got one..they normally only sell them at 7-eleven..however I found some at High's this morning. That's why I only got one..I don't trust High's and the brownie seemed like half its usual size...LOL...So fat. Ya'll ain't tried shit till you ate a Reese's Brownie. LMAo.

But yea hearing about it makes me want one...so I am going to continue to pretend to do some work and stuff my face with my favorite most delectable snack...REESE'S BROWNIE. LMAo.

"This is the life!!"

.*lesbians.

So I was talking to my brother Kendall yesterday and it all started with a early morning text..lol. He hits me up and says, "my bad I ain't hit you back Im gone hit you later tho..im tryna fuck some lesbians!! I think they want me cross ya fingers!!"...LMAo..

I found this hilarious..I was dying..but I never responded..just slightly crossed my fingers for him. LOL. So bout a few hours later he hits me back like, "Dammit Dee your supposed to be excited for me...LESBIANS!!!"...LMAo...yea I am still finding it hilarious..So I respond back, because obviously he expects me to give a fuck..LOL. So i told him I was happy for him and I crossed my fingers..

So he calls me and this damn boy had me dying laughing..because I could hear the excitement in his voice..he spent a good 30 to 45 mins talking about how he can't miss this opportunity again, and recaping his other two close encounters with a threesome with two lesbians. And how its supposed to go down today. Kendall had me cracking up..cuz I met one of the girls before (the dominate one) and this girl looks so manly..there ain't a feminine bone in her body..so I was laughing cuz I am sure this depleats his fantasy some. But she confuses me..she's the type of person that doesn't care about a female's sexuality..she feels she can "convert" them persay, she spoke to him about trying to get at me before and he kurked on her cuz he told her once before and she still said something again. But anyway..she confuses me because it's no doubt she likes women and she's never been with a man..but the way she looks at kendall makes me think she fiending for penis..LOL.

When I met her I couldn't tell if she was a lesbian or not..because her demeanor comes off as gay but the longing in her eyes for him had me all fucked up..LOL. But when he told me about what she was saying about me..there was no doubt. So Kendall and I are talking..and he just keeps saying LESBIANS..LOL..and of course the issue of her dominace came up..and his response was, "I have to see her naked first."...LMAo....guys are too funny..is it every guy's fantasy to have sex with more than one woman at once..or to have two lesbians?? I dunno. But doesn't that fuck the fantasy up..wouldn't you feel like your fucking a man?? LMAo..But Kendall...I wish you the best on your adventures today..and hopefully ya lesbian fantasy will FINALLY be fulfilled, cuz im sick of hearing about it..(hope she's not too manly for you..LMAo).

"AnD da Bible toLd us every girl was sour..don't play in her gar-den..and doNt SmeLL her Fla-wers"

.*rock of love.

I have been slipping on my show lately..mainly because the ones I wanted to win have been eliminated..lol. But I seen the finale last night and I don't know how I feel about it. I don't like Amber..well it's not that I don't like her but that bitch is old as dirt..and she lied about her age...who does that???..Old women that are scared of gettin old..LMAo..

Actually..I am pressed Amber won if it was between her and Daisy. Daisy makes me sooooo fuckin mad...that bitch is sooo ugly young..she looks like a fucking platypus..LOL. And a bad case of plastic surgery gone wrong. LOL. I do not see what Bret thinks is so sexy about her..her breast are soo fucking fake..her face looks like she has down syndrome and she has no brain what so ever. She can't make a complete statement that has any relevance or actual meaning..

I wanted Inya to win..the girl from the Ukraine. I think she was Bi-sexual..but I think she looked da best out of everyone in the house and after she left and I seen how pressed he was on Daisy ugly ass...I lost interest...But I am sooo fucking glad he chose Amber over Daisy..YES!!!!.. As much I don't like Amber for him..I think they really might make it tho..because all and all..Amber does have it together and I think since he is a rock star..he needs someone who isn't as into that as him so he can have balance between his life and career.

"Life is so full of surprises."

.*I am legend.

I seen this movie for the first time today, and it was real good. However, I must admit..I am a little disappointed with the movie..I expected more..way more. The movie went by so slow..I guess that's what happens when the whole movie just about has only one character the whole movie..lol. But it was a good movie overall. It had a good point to it. But here is the major shocker and main reason for this blog..and I am sorry to spoil it for whoever hasn't seen it yet..BUT...OH MY GOSH..FOR ONCE WILL SMITH DIES IN A MOVIE..lol. U know that nicca never dies..every movie he has done..he always survive impossible ass shit..or wait is that Denzel???..LMAo...they both go through impossible ass shit..but yea it's Will Smith that never dies...Well his ass died today!!...I gotta watch it again because I missed some parts...but two thumbs up!!

"iTz iN My Louie Bag..Yea iTz iN My Louie Bag."

.*chin hair = good pussy??..LOL

Soo I seen a woman with a beard today..and this thought crossed my mind..and I just busted out laughing..because I thought about my cousin Trina...LOL..because I remembered like a few years back..she was talking about she had a few chin hairs..and I gave her a look like "WHAT DA FUCK BITCH..DAT SHIT AINT CUTE."..lol..And she went on to say.."Grandma (my dad's aunt Concese) says women with chin hairs means u got good pussy"..LOL..WOW. I was dying laughing at this country ass logic..Cuz yes my family is mad country...
Uhm..my thoughts on this are..No bitch...that shit ain't cute, if you have chin hairs..u need to take whatever method works for you the best to conceal that shit..wax, tweeze, makeup..whatever..but YOU NEED TO GET RID OF THAT SHIT!!!...lol. And in case they missed the memo..everyone has hair ALL OVER their body..it's just that some people are more hairy then others. Soo...if you grow visible hair under your chin and your a female..it's not a real bad thing..well it ain't good either..but it's not a big deal (to some)..your just hairy..lol..AS LONG as you get rid of that shit before I see you, your good..lol. The places you grow hair does not dictate the integrity of your pussy..LOL..STOP IT!!.. Bitch if ya pussy good..u will know it..and a few hairs under ya chin..damn sure didn't make it that way...LOL..Don't make excuses for your excessive hair under your chin, or make it out to be cute..GET RID OF IT IMMEDIATELY!! Now, I do see in a lot of old women they have little patches of hair on their chin..but that's OLDER OLDER women..I do not want to see no females my age group or lower with chin hairs shinning..lol..Not a good look..AT ALL..but to each their own i guess...lol.

"iMa tHoRougH BreD..Not ya OrDiNarY."

.*more bad news.

Mannnn....once again today I recieved bad news..and its starting to really blow me, because I had a bomb ass weekend. I spent friday wit da crew sipping a lil sumthing and just acting stupid. Then saturday, I seen so many people I have not seen in so long we just had a fucking blast. We all got bent..and just acted a fool. Lotion Bottle my brother showed face..and im so glad he came because I missed him. My nicca Joey showed face as well..and we go way back..so it's ALWAYS good to chill wit fam. Sharde and I seen each other for the first time in a long time too..and we just put aside our differences and just enjoyed each other's company. Took a lot of crazy pictures and talked shit..like old times. So basically the result was a beautiful, drama-free night. LOL. You know dats hard to come by..especially at house partys cuz niccaz don't know how to act..

But today, I learned my cousin's grandfather is expected to last only a week. This fucks me up, because I couldn't imagine the feeling of being told when your loved ones last days are..it's almost like your just waiting for them to die, and that alone just makes your world twirl in slow motion. But mainly because my cousin has a heart of gold..she is mad blunt but there's a lot more there then people will ever see. Ne-way..she has a heart of gold and she has been going through so much in 07..she DESERVES to be and I just want her to be happy. Not even half a year has past since she had to lay another close family member to rest..and there is no easy way to handle death. So I doubt, she has fully recovered from that blow. And mad bullshit went on from then to now..and now this..No one should have to succumb to the things she has encountered lately. So my heart is truly with her right now..because I do know what it is like to say goodbye to someone you can not be without. Also, I feel so bad cuz its like damn when will the rain just stop pouring...and as strong as she is..I just worry because I know for a fact...it's all too much..But all I can do is try to be there for her whenever she needs me..and try to keep her positive through this..cuz my girl is a fucking FIGHTER...and what don't kill you makes you stronger..and she has the heart of a fucking lion (she is a leo..lol)..so it's no doubt she will rise from the ashes..but it's hard to keep it all together when you encounter half the shit she has been thru.

It bothers me so much..because, I REALLY REALLY WANT HER TO JUST BE HAPPY...and she has come so far...and once things start looking half way decent..this occurs..God..I know you know what you doing..but uhm..yea my nicca..what's really good??? Cuz this ain't it..

"AnD teLL aLL my Niccaz that..the sKy is The LiMiT"

.*sad.

Man, I received some devastating news today which really fucked me up emotionally. I spoke with my best friend today for the first time in a very long time. This girl and I have known each other since the second grade, and we haven't really been cool in a whole year and a half almost. Our friendship ended kind of sour, but we NEVER had no beef or nothing. And even though we "fell out" it was never like any love lost, because we are much deeper than friends..we truly are sisters. Well, today I learned that her father (our father) has cancer and is in his last stages. Hearing this news had me broke down crying at work. It just seems so unreal..I am hurt that it looks as if his passing is possible, because it all seems too soon to me. Like death comes with the territory, however..the thought of having to bury a parent of someone so close to my heart so soon in our lives is just completely devastating. And to add to the pain I feel soo fucking bad, because this girl has been there for me through everything major in my life..all the good and the bad..times I couldn't care for myself..she was there washing my ass for me..whenever I have cried..one look in her direction or call and she's crying with me..and vice versa. And I have not been there for her through these times. My baby tells me don't feel bad because I didn't know..which is true..I just found out today..but I can't help it.
Through our whole lives she's never needed me in the same ways I have needed her..
and it just saddens me so much, because she has had to deal with the same type of shit I went through with my grandfather..and I have not been by her side like she was for me. AND..I think about why we stopped talking and it was not worth it at all, because whether we want to talk or not..we can not deny we are family..we been apart of each other for too long..and to know I could have missed out on everything about what's going on now..is VERY scary to picture. I have called this man dad since the 2nd grade..that will never change.
At the time we seemed to be going in two different directions in our lives..and that pulled us apart, but what topped the cake was..to look back now..it seems as if I got stuck in the middle of a dispute between her and the other closest person to me at the time. It was almost as if I had to choose..because the situation left no room for friendship with both. It's not like I was forced to decide..but trust me, it couldn't have worked any other way. And that's so stupid, because the situation had nothing to do with me at all..but somehow I got caught in the middle..so I chose to make no effort what so ever into trying to salvage our friendship, because the situation was so monumental that if it was true..there is NO possible excuse to make that shit okay..and if it was false..we were already on two different paths..so at the time it made me no difference if we were friends or not. But in my heart, I know it does.
Today it has really hit me that sometimes you really just have to agree to disagree. People evolve..sometimes for the best other times for the worst..but regardless..when you have someone who is there for you no matter what, and has shown you they want only the best for you..no matter what approach they take..no matter what choices they make..you still love and accept them no matter what changes ya'll go through. Don't waste time on shit that can deteriorate your personal growth, Never let anything come between family, forgive and forget, and live every fucking day like its your ma fucking last.

"Been RuNNiN FoR too LoNg..iTz TiMe to Give Me Mines"

.*GreeDee.

I have a fetish..well I have a few fetishes..but my main fetish and love comes in the form of food. LOL. Yes, I need help ya'll. LOL. I like to go out to eat, I like variety, and I am a VERY picky eater. I would rather go to a elegant restaurant and take my time, but time does not always allow..so I set tle for mouth-watering fast food. On Thursday, I went to Burger King for my tantalizing BBQ Bacon Tendercrisp and a few hours later I went to Wendy's for a exceptional Chicken Club no lettuce, or tomato, and add american yellow cheese. LOL. I eat so much I get to the point where I am so full, I can barely move. Friday, I had to make another trip to the BK because again I was fiending for the Tendercrisp. This time I got Hershey's Chocolate pie as well..oOoooo...that is so delicious..I shoulda have gotten two pieces. However, when I finished the one I was so full I had to unbutton my jeans..lol. That's sad.
Within a hour I had to stop for snacks. My snacks consisted of honey roasted cashews (YUMMY!!), Cooler Ranch Doritos, Pepperoni Slim Jim, Arizona's Sweet Tea, and of course a Milky Way. LOL. I really really have been fiending for the Waffle House..so that is my place for tonite...YES!!! I can't wait..I had a dream last nite about those Buttermilk waffles..lmao. Back to friday, not even two and half hours later..I needed more snacks..lol. Oh this is the highlight of my blog, because what I got this time..has been something I have been searching high and low for. I finally found a NUTRAGEOUS..oh my gosh...YESSSS!!!..I thought they must have took them off the market because they were completely ghost from everywhere. But I found one..King size too..lol. This morning I had McDonald's breakfast, and now I am eating a PORKY sub. Yea..don't know nothing about that..that is one of the best sandwiches created..it consist of Steak, Bacon, and Ham. YUMMY!!..I am in heaven right now..lol. After this weekend, it is clear that I have a problem..lol. My friend Greg and I were discussing this problem, and his response was...GREEDEE. lol. So I have coined the term, bringing me a new found understanding..that maybe I don't have a problem. I am just that...Gree-DEE. LMAo.
On another note...my cousin is having a party tonite, I have some things I need to do in preparation..soo, I am going to finish my delectable PORKY while doing my hair, and bumping weezy f. baby...and please say da baby..lol.

"BLowiN MoNey..BLowiN MoNey..ToLd u bout dat Cash..iN da paper bag..and iF u see da cops..DiPPiN oN Dey azz"

.*baconator.

theeeeee best sandwich ever..is none other than the BACONATOR. I just love this soo much. I have to retract my initial comment, that the baconator is thee best sandwich ever, because in actuality..the title has to be held in a tie. So, theeee best sandwiches ever..are none other than the BACONATOR and Roy Roger's GOLD RUSH. However, this is solely on the BACONATOR. I bought one last nite and it wass sooooooo gooood. LOL. No sandwich is better. Although, I recently discovered the BBQ Bacon Tendercrisp from Burger King is pretty tantalizing..nothing comes close to my scrumptious baconator. NOTHING!!...lol. Unless its filet mignon, lobster, and scallops..but were talking about sandwiches here..LMAo...True fat ass..Oh but I went to Ruby Tuesday's on Sunday..and of course I ate good but after I got dessert!! Yes, oMg..I recommend this to everyone..I got a Chocolate Tall Cake...OMG...that shit was sooo delicious, and it looked so pretty. You have to try it..lol.


"CuTe FaCe..sLiM waisT..caLL her BaBy HaLLe."